False Reality

I've come to the realization that everyone has their own false sense of what is real. Whether its their weight, that they're in control of a situatuion, or that those $360 pair of pumps was worth an overdrawn account, I am convinced that everyone has their THING! That itch you always have to scratch, that flaw no one sees but you. I work amongst the most arrogant attorneys in the DMV and they all think they're the best! People take themselves too seriously and are way too sensitive. My THING is my ex. No matter what they say all I hear is "There is nothing I would want more than anything than to be with you". Call me Crazy but I already know I'm insane, but what's more horrifying is that people everywhere suffer from this same dissability. Now to a certain extent its totally true that my Ex wants to be with me, but "my own" sense of what's happening outside of whats real and tangible versus those things considered abstract are always at war! Causing me to oftentimes confuse the that which I see and hear and the message that THING is trying to get across to me. I know it annoys them for me to rant and rave about how much they don't love me because their actions are not consistent with their tales of love and admiration! Now when I am able to really think about it I feel a little sorry for them, it seems that many simple messages of love and adoration, of hope and faith in our relationship have somehow been transposed and torn apart en route from their lips to my ears. I'm always confusing myself, getting worked up and emotional, writing them off.....just to call them a few days later telling them how much I Love them for loving me despite my insanity. Everything in this World is run by a cycle. Our individual grasp of reality is one of those things. One day your fine the next, you've been committed to Saint E's. Whether a monthly recurrence or something that happens less often, they can be controlled. Bottom line stop causing yourself to see what isn't there. No you're not Dyslexic you just crazy, lucky for you the World runs on Insanity!